Meeting # 2 is now in session

Hi my name is Elizabeth and I am a Mackaholic. He has gone overseas for 6 weeks or so. He will be returning on August 25th or so. I can, I will, I must survive this time without him. There are many things going on in my life that should keep me occupied enough that the time flies by. First, Mom's in the hospital. Today is Day 25... I had to go to Access NS with power of attorney information to get her car temporarily registered, I also paid her bills today. I woke up in a bad mood, actually I went to bed feeling loney and sad, woke up feeling even crappier, went and visited Mom for a little bit. I brushed out most of her hair, gave her some lunch and something to drink. Came home, checked my email and voila my lovely friend Ken had sent me an email wanting to know if he could come visit. He held me this afternoon and made me feel so happy. I really needed to see a friendly face to get my mind off of the crap going on inside my head. So, when he left, I went to town and did POA crap for Mom, came home... Had a bite to eat, Jean asked me to go to the liquor store for her. So, off I went to do that... Now I am home.

I can feel the depression kicking in... I am going to have to talk to Dr. Salazar about upping my celexa again. With the stress in my life I am just getting crankier and more tired. As I get crankier and more tired, my mind plays tricks on my body. My depression deepens and my ability to fight it off becomes much more difficult.

I am sitting here listening to sad, sappy love songs. ...probably should not be listening to "Stay" by Sugarland... I don't think I should be listening to sappy songs at all... I still miss him... I do hope he's happy but I see his face in every person I see when I go to Dartmouth... Sad, eh? He made my toes curl with just a look from his sparkling blue eyes... Oh yeah... I need to start thinking of other things and people... Him being Mike. I know Mack, I know. I need to get him out of my head but it's hard a times when I see people happy, in love and moving on with their lives. All I truly want is him. I regret so many things when it comes to him. I regret hurting him, I regret sending that letter but most of all I regret not giving him a chance when he wanted a second chance. I still love him, what do I do about that?

Hell's Kitchen starts again next week, this will be the first time in 3 or 4 seasons that I will not get to watch the whole season with Mack. I sure hope that Jada is taping it for you.

Well, that's about it for now. I will close this session of Mackaholics with the following:

hahahaha Chad broke the trend and gave Grandma Mack a granddaughter...hahaha... Now Jada will definitely be on your ass about another baby soon Mack.

Hi, my name is Elizabeth and I am a Mackaholic. Til next time, be safe and enjoy.