Four weeks today

Where oh where have the last 4 weeks gone??? I am still so devestated and hurt that my beautiful Mama was taken home to God. We received the autopsy results yesterday. She did not have meningitis. She died from respiratory failure, congestive heart failure and pulmonary edema. She did have a hemorrage of the brain, which we knew as both her pupils had dilated and did not return to normal the night before we turned the ventilator off. I feel as if there is this great big empty hole inside of me. I would love to hug Mom one more time, hear her yell at me one more time. I am not angry at God or Mom. I am angry at the hospital staff, the doctors and everyone else who said her personality changes were of no concern and that her diminished level of consciousness was because she simply did not want to get up and get better. I guess they were wrong. She simply could not get up and get better. I am going to have my doctor review the report with me and then think long and hard about going to see a lawyer.

On a brighter note, I do not have to have any girlie parts treatment. Well, I am 99% certain that I do not have to have any. I will know in about 6 weeks. My girlie test in February came back clean, and if this last one from this week comes back clean, than I can go back to my regular routine of once a year instead of every 6 months.

On an every more brighter note, Mack gets to return to civilization and his family next week. So, I am hoping that on September 1st we will be able to watch HK together. It is not so much fun without him. It actually depresses me. We haven't missed a single episode or season in 2 years.... **sniffle sniffle**...

His brother Chad had a daughter in July. A few days before Mack left for wherever he is overseas. I think that I should file a complaint with the military about sending him overseas during HK season... hahaha...

Well, that's about all I have to write about... Til next time, be safe and enjoy.