PLEASE HOLD UP MY HEART GIVE ME A REASON FOR THIS SILENCE

Have I ever mentioned how much I despise winter? Here it is nearly the 1st of March and we are expecting 50cm of snow beginning Sunday but only after we get 20mm of rain tomorrow... I will be so glad when this winter is over.

Today my grandmother would have been 70 years old if she had not of died from cancer nearly 10 years ago. I miss her so much that my heart breaks thinking of never being able to talk to her again, or having another game of cards with her. No matter how hard I tried I could not beat her at crib, I once had nearly the perfect hand playing against her. She was such a great person and so loving towards a little girl who needed to be loved.

She told me there was nothing she would not tell me if I asked her. So, I got brave one night and asked her who my real father was. She gave me his name and my grandfather said "I should have shot the son of a bitch when I had the chance". It was at that moment I realized that I did not need this man in my life was only a sperm donor. I had many great role models and this unknown man could not offer me anything as all the other male role models in my life gave me everything I needed or wanted.

I saw the eye doctor today... Apparently everything is "OK"... I guess I am stuck with asking Dr. Hottie next week to find out what the eye doctor discovered...

I do not have to have treatment on my female parts, so that's good news.

Mack is away for a while... He had to go to CFB Shearwater for something or other... I try not to ask questions so that way I do not forget anything he says that may be important...lol...

Well I am off to make popcorn and curl up to watch tv for a while... Til next time enjoy and be safe...